the big apple : I don't consider myself a tourist anymore!!

One month today i have been here!! Time seriously is flying by so quickly...it doesn't even seem like i have been out here that long! I love it though:) I have been trying to figure things out, where the main roads are, how to drive in NY, and specifically figure out where the country stations are on the radio!! I love country music, but there is absolutely none on the radio..i try searching but i can't ever find it. I need to ask someone because i'm sick of all there lamo rap crap!!
Isn't it weird that we pick things out that is different about things back at home? There are no trucks out here..i miss those, zero mountains what so ever, and to many cars! haha!! Everyone out here is either really mean or overly nice, i swear there is no inbetween! Everything is fast pace, go go go attitudes..and there drivers are absolutely insane! Last week when i was in the city with my friend we had to take a taxi to take us back down into the city because we were upstate..and i litereally almost died while in the car..ran probably 5 red lights, and 50 fatal accidents! I am so surprised that there are not more accidents. What i figured out was that like in movies when they show NYC and taxi's in traffic and just a constant honk..they aren't lying, thats real life! Nothing ever stops moving, its absolutely insane!! New York is a beautiful place to be though, all of the amazingly tall buildings, shopping centers, museums, and sights to see! I still have a lot to see because of course i only get to go into the city every weekend and in one day you can't see a lot! So i have a lot ahead of me!!
As for the nanny part of this journey..i love it!! I get to be a mom everyday (that may not sound like a lot of fun, but i am learning a lot) the kids can be a bit to much at times, but i have to remind myself that they are kids and thats what kids do. As anyone would say..i am sure that it's much harder looking after other little kids that aren't your own (and since i don't have any of my own) i think about my nephews..how i enjoy watching them but to other people its more of a job!! It used to be a job, but now i am enjoying it more and feeling more comfortable with the kids! It's amazing how you can just mold into peoples life..like it was meant to be, and i don't doubt for a second that this was my plan all along, because i have already seen changes that are for the better with the family.
The parents have asked a lot of questions about the church. Sometimes i don't feel qualified to answer them because i'm not a "missionary"..but that doesn't mean that i can't help get them there right? I believe that this is my "mission" while everyone else gets to go on their missions, this is mine. To help this family in every way, shape and form!! They did tell me that they are interested and intrigued in my religion. I just hope that they will ask me more questions, and actually want to know more. I am praying that the missionaries will be able to get involved..maybe not while i am here, but maybe down the road! That's my "mission"!!!
New York has already changed the way i think and believe life's suppose to be!! This has been one of the best decisions of my life, and i still have 7 1/2 months left!! Can't wait for what lies ahead of me:)