everything happens for a reason

five.more.weeks.  

say what???

I've made a lot of decisions in my life thus far..but none quite this big..and one that has changed my life so immensely

I know that i didn't come out to New York for any odd reason..i know i came out here to meet the many amazing people that i have met. I know that if i wasn't LDS that i wouldn't have made as many friends. All the people that i hang out with go to church with me and that's such a blessing. I know how many people that i have met will always have a special place in my heart.

i came out to New York not knowing anyone..not even the family i came out here to nanny. I came out here with full trust in The Lord that everything would be perfect, and because i prayed and asked my Heavenly Father if this was right..i knew without a doubt that this was where my life was taking me.

New York City...a place that is so intimidating. 

I got off that plane, not even knowing if my host family was going to be real, if my host dad was going to be there to pick me up. I traveled across the United States out of full courage..all by myself. I would be lying if i didn't say i was scared. I was nervous, excited, and possibly every emotion you could think of when that plane landed in New York City. 

I remember i said a prayer before i made it to the escalator's to go find my bags, that this would all be in the plan..and now 8 months in..i know for a fact that this was where i was needed at this time in my life.

plans change, and you just have to keep on going. 

I would never change this experience here in New York for anything in this world. It has made me realize things in my life that i wouldn't have if i didn't come out here. The family has taught me things i hope for my future family, and has taught me things i don't want for my family. I hope that through this experience i have helped them become closer as a family, and brought them happiness. Not only by being their nanny, but becoming their friend! I hope that when i leave here in 5 weeks that i will be missed and that they will always remember me!

These weeks that are coming are so bittersweet 

My life has been changed for the better. I have grown emensley through this journey, and though it has only been 8 months..i feel like i am apart of this family! And i am going to miss that

but....

My life is starting a new chapter
MY MISSIONARY IS COMING HOME!!!!
The love of my life. my best friend. my other half. my everything

I get home from New York on Friday, June 21st and Josh gets home Thursday, June 27th

SIX DAYS
I couldn't be more excited. I have been waiting two years for this moment in time..and even though it's not here, i am close enough that i can see the finish line. That alone, is worth the two years!! I can't imagine what it will be like when he gets home! I am beyond excited :)

So for the couple weeks that i have left in New York, i am going to live it up and love every minute that i have left with this amazing family! I am beyond excited for the girl that will replace me (i know her, so that makes me happy!), and i know they will always be in good hands..but that doesn't take away the pain of having to eventually say goodbye to these kids, even though i know i'll see them again. Until then.. it will be a party! :)

Brian or Deanna, if you are reading this.. i want to dedicate this song to you guys! Thank you for everything :)

i love new york :)